I’m scared to write about it because I’m worried that writing about it will make it stop.
About three weeks ago, Kale randomly started leaving out his 10:30pm feeding. We’d put him to bed at his normal 7ish time and then we’d climb into bed at 10 or 10:30 with the expectation that ANY MINUTE NOW he’d cry out wanting to be fed and then all of a sudden we were waking up and it was 1AM. I didn’t think much of it but when it became the norm I silently congratulated ourselves all around on it just happening very casually, which is really what I was hoping for.
His napping has become fairly predictable – he wants a nap around 11 and another around 3 and he naps for 45 minutes to an hour and a half, most commonly an hour. I’m not too concerned with how long his naps are – if he wakes after only a half an hour, I do try and encourage him to go back to sleep but if it’s anything after 45 minutes then we get up and if he tells me he needs a bit of a cat nap a few hours later, that’s okay too. I don’t really care. We have a routine where he wakes up where we have some hugs and kisses and we open the curtains and blinds together and “look at the world” and I LOVE it when he smiles at what he sees.
Last night, we put Kale to bed a bit late. He had had a rare 2 hour afternoon nap and so when I left for my pedicure he had his dinner and his bath and was still pretty agreeable and rather than worry about defrosting breastmilk and bottling him and blah blah, he sat up with Ross for a little bit later than normal. When I arrived home at 8, he was definitely sleepy but totally smiley and after a HUGE feeding and a giant burp he was asleep in like, thirty seconds. It’s becoming easier to put him to sleep and easier to transition him from loving arms to the crib. Yay on both counts.
Kale doesn’t and has never woken up well – he cries out like he’s having a bad dream – and it’s pretty normal for him to have little outbursts a few times in the evening where we go in, replace his sucky, whisper “shhhh, shhhh” and he’s right back to sleep because he wasn’t really awake at all. Sometimes he can self soothe and sometimes if we let it go it will escalate, so he is learning but we aren’t there yet so when we hear a little cry we both stop and listen to see what happens before acting. Last night was no different than normal and I think Ross went in three times. I try and encourage Ross to do that so that Kale doesn’t smell breastmilk and trigger an actual awakening.
We went to bed at our normal time and all of a sudden it was 5:30AM.
He slept from 8:30 ish till 5:30 ish.
Now, I realize this is probably a one-off and that it’s going to be some time before we can reliably say he is sleeping through the night and if he doesn’t for a long time to come I am OKAY with it. I am not going to try crying it out – I feel in my gut that Kale does not release tension by crying like I think some babies do, and I don’t think I am capable of handling that. It’s just not for us. BUT can I get a freakin’ HALLELUJAH here? WOW. SEVEN blissful hours of uninterrupted sleep. I had to pee sooooooo bad when I woke up it wasn’t funny and my breasts were a little achy. BUT MAN DO I FEEL ALERT TODAY. Holy cow.