This past week I have spent almost every moment of non-Kale-interactive time working on the market, and I am so excited that it’s all coming together as well as I had hoped. I feel like I can breathe a tiny sigh of relief, as if the market were to start tomorrow, things are in place enough that it will go off without a hitch. All I’m doing now is fine-tuning, chasing payments, and making confirmations with various parties.
I’m scheduled to go back to work for my former employer as of tomorrow night – I’m working 3 hours each evening Mondays and Tuesdays after Kale is in bed – and it’s this item that I feel the least excited about in my life these days. I won’t say I’m dreading it, but I can say with absolute clarity that I am not looking forward to it the way I look forward to working on the market or caring for Shauna’s little girl and Kale’s best buddy Bonnie come September. Working for my former employer (I guess “former” is actually not the right word but my brain has ceased its thesaural duties for the day) is not the job I want, however, it will be regular, dependable income, and so I feel it’s in our best interest for me to do it. After my market contract is over, it will be a long winter financially speaking, until the market starts up again next year and I will be able to apply for the job again, and so I sigh, get over myself, and prepare for the familiar smells and sights of an office I spent the past 11 years in.
It’s not without challenges – I’ll have a new supervisor, and new duties, and as I have figured out watching Kale grow and develop, learning is tiring work. I’m thankful that we’ve been able to negotiate short shifts. I’m also sad as this week marks the beginning of more time away from home, less time in Kale’s presence, and while I think it’s important to get out of the house and enjoy being an adult woman with a social life and adult interaction, working by myself with a music player and headphones in front of a screen working spreadsheets is certainly not going to accomplish that. But, like I said, it will bring in some steady, reliable income.
A picture from yesterday:
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