Please Stop Playing With the Curtains

I want to crawl back into bed and cover up my head and start all over because I think I shall go completely mad by the end of the day and if I could just nip it in the bud, things might get better. Kale is really into pushing buttons these days – phones, remotes, lock boxes… but most especially MINE. And I’m letting him push them today, apparently, because I have referred to my lovely first born son twice already today under my breath as an a-hole. He’s being oh-so-toddlery and I think we should just change that word from toddler to small angry ruler of a country no one pays attention to because all he seems to do this past week is vacillate between demonically angry and frighteningly happy.

Kale is currently in his crib, yakking it up to his bear, his blanket, his whatever. He’s beating on the blinds in his room, kicking the wall through the bars. I’m hiding in our room, typing away on a BLOG ENTRY because for ten minutes, seriously, I need to escape. He’s got me so angry today that I know its better for all of us if we spend the next ten minutes like this – him chatteirng it up to himself and me typing out my frustrations. I can feel them flowing from my fingertips as I type this and my heart rate is slowing and I’m feeling considerably less angry.

Bonnie is sucking on her blanket in her bed, but she’s peaceful and at least mostly asleep. It’s only Kale who has decided that today is a perfectly good day to not nap, which coincides perfectly with an inordinate amount of work I need to complete. And again, here I am typing a BLOG ENTRY rather than doing it.

Today I’ve shouted at Kale, I’ve given him a time out. I’ve had to count to ten a thousand times. Today I actually googled “Anger Management Techniques for Parents”.

Now his chattering has turned to sad, piteous crying. Fake crying with real tears as he has convinced himself that he is hard done by and that he doesn’t need to sleep, doesn’t need to stay in his room for some quiet time.

Today, I need to take deep breaths and put on the happy, calm face of a parent who understands that he’s only a toddler, that he’s just developing and experimenting and that I need to just be calm and roll with it. Today, more than any other day in recent memory, I can’t seem to do that.

Deep breaths. This too shall pass. For the billionth time, please stop playing with the curtains.

Edit: immediately after finishing writing this, I went in to Kale’s room to remind him again that it was sleeping time. Blissfully, he said “okay”, lied down, and shut his eyes. Sometimes, this kid throws me a curve ball.

9 years ago

14 Comments

  1. So for the past 2 weeks, Jenna has been exceptionally good with taking her vitamins in the morning. There has been *NO* drama. She has just smiled and taken them without complaint.
    This morning, Kevin said half jokingly, “wow Jenna that was really fast to have taken your vitamins, where did you put them?”.
    She looked like a deer in the headlights and said, “I don’t want you to be mad.” Kevin said, “not nearly as mad as if you don’t tell me!” and so she disclosed that they were… wait for it….
    Stashed behind the corner cabinet. We moved the cabinet and sure enuf, there on the floor, were I’m not kidding you, 10 days of cached vitamins.
    Bust-TED.

  2. Your writing really lets me know how you feel even though I have zero connection with the actual events you described. You ‘slices of life’ are going to be so valuable as the future changes everything. Just wanted to say I am glad I stopped by …

  3. You are right he is finding his independence. Checking just how far can I push mommy or daddy. It’s how they learn. Just remember to pick your battles and draw that line in the sand. Stick to your decisions and your…. wait…..His too will come. Each day will be hold more and more amazing surprises. He won’t listen (you think) but really he is listening to absolutely everything. Some of it will sink in at the most ridiculous times (and never when you want), but don’t kid yourself he is listening.

  4. Did I write this? Yesterday Moira skipped her nap because obviously sleeping would have meant precious tantrum time and we couldn’t miss THAT now could we? Holy crap she is so TWO right now it is painful. I keep having to walk away from her and ignore her or else I get so frustrated. At least you are writing a blog entry. Yesterday I just lay on the couch and cried.

  5. Thanks Dennis! I’m already feeling better which is good because Kale has decided today is also a good day to smush muffin into the couch.

  6. smashed muffin and your house is on the market?! calmblueocean-calmblueocean-calmblueocean…

    Seriously, though, I have actually said to my two monster-children (when they were younger and I was TOTALLY losing it), “Mommy needs a time out now,” and locked myself in the bathroom with my ears plugged. The only thing missing was some tequila.

    Hang in there, Jen…

  7. *HUGS* I know not of which you speak (thank goodness, I would SO have CPS called on me, I’m sure!), but it sounds like you are handling it wonderfully, given the situation. Just breathe in and out, in and out, in and out, and remember that tomorrow will come and everything will be different (hopefully!) 🙂

  8. As soon as I had finished reading your entry I passed the computer over to Ian so he could read it. Right now we are having whining issues (Georgia and, increasingly, me!). She doesn’t even bother asking for things sometimes, she just whines and does that mock crying thing that really gets my back up. It hasn’t got so bad that I’ve resorted to time-outs or leaving the room but it’s got close! It’s “nice” to know that I’m not the only one – it often feels like other people’s kids are little angels and you have the only monster around!

  9. If it makes you feel any better, I had one of these days with one of my kitties today. *sigh*

  10. My third is my most “2-ish” child thus far, and he’s really amped it up since his birthday. I find his tantrums are easily diffused by using that feels-goffy-but-works Dr. Karp thing (you know, Happiest Toddler on the Block… imitate a caveman… let me know if you don’t know what I mean!) I’ve also found that after a week or so of him fighting his naps, he actually goes to sleep better if I put him down EARLIER. I know, right? But really, if he’s up for the day around 7:30, I have him in bed around noon or 12:30. Before, I was letting him stay up until 1 or 1:30 before trying to put him down, and it would often be 2:30 by the time he gave up and slept. Now he goes down much easier and is up before it’ll lead into screwing up bedtime territory. Your mileage may vary, of course. 🙂

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